Live for a Change

Live for a Change

In high school, I decided that I didn't believe in God. I decided I wanted to live for my own pleasure. I started drinking. I drank a lot. I lost my virginity on my 18th birthday. In college, I started smoking. More girls, more drinking, more smoking . . . more emptiness.

At age 21, I began working at a bar where I could drink all I wanted for free. I didn't even realize how much I was drinking. I began driving myself home completely drunk. Finally, I realized I was going overboard. I tried to cut back, but failed. I tried to find happiness in relationships, but they failed. My depression got so great I was prescribed Xanex and Lexapro. One night I started drinking after taking some Xanex. This combination is very dangerous and I took it as far as I could physically stand it. That night, I met a girl who I had never seen before, and quickly found myself in a very immoral situation, yet I did not even care.

Then something changed.

The next day I woke up, hung-over, and petrified by the magnitude of what I had just done. I have never felt so close to hell. My sin had gotten the best of me. All I could do was cry. The shame, guilt, disgust, depression, and pain I was feeling was like nothing I had ever felt before. But this time, instead of turning back to alcohol, I cried out to God to save me from myself. At that exact moment, He began to soothe my broken soul.

Now I have been restored through Christ. I want to serve Him wholeheartedly for the rest of my life. I plan to attend seminary and serve as a mission worker and witness to His word. Through Christ, all things are made new, and I thank God that I am one of those who has been made new.

Matt
Sugar Creek member